Insomniac? Or skeptical? or Anxious?
Its been like that every time I have an early morning flight to catch. Right from 9pm, I keep telling myself that I should sleep, but to no avail. I should pack, I say to myself. The body just does not listen to me. Procrastination!!
So, yesterday night was no different in any respect. I had returned from office at 6:30 itself( quite early by my standards), and freshened up. I even had my dinner early (10 pm)’ and thought yes, today would be different. I have a 6:20 am flight to Delhi tomorrow morning, and I can comfortably sleep for a good 6 hours, without spoiling my normal biological clock.
Just that there was a little problem. I need to shave. I have a meeting with a very senior person tomorrow, and would be meeting many other people too, and I cannot be looking shabby! Chuck it! Shall do it tomorrow morning!I This sleep, which remains elusive on such nights, is tough to get back. So I slept. Slept at 10:30 pm itself. Great!
I got a call at 11pm, and I tried hard not to allow it to disturb my slumber. I just answered back that I am sleeping, and would talk later, and the person understood. I was back to sleeping at 11:05 pm.
11:30 pm in the clock on the blackberry. I am sleeping. Good I think within. But wait, if I am sleeping, why am I looking at the time? That is okay. It is within sleep that I am looking at the clock. Happens. I have finally overcome the anxiety and sleeplessness!
12:09 am, and I am awake looking at the clock, and my fingers tempting to check the mail. No, I am not sleeping, and no matter how hard i try anymore, I just cannot keep lying. It is futile!
12:26 am. I finally give up, and getup from the bed back to my arm chair in the hall. This is just not working, and he I am, in the middle of the night, unable to sleep. Knowing very well that I have to wake up at 4 am, and should catch up some sleep. Elusive dream. Alas!
Here I am, typing this piece on my return flight from Delhi, on my iPad. Yes, it is fun to be typing on this. Steve jobs. Hail! This is a real masterpiece. The more I use it, the more I like it. I have become an Apple fan boy, and am eagerly looking forward to buy an iPod, iPhone( I don’t know why?) and the jesus book – yes, the retina display Mac book! Here I come, to give away my technical self to Apple.
And yeah, by the way, I did not sleep at all last night. Just could not!